You know those days or weeks where you are struggling with contentment? Well for me I had one of those days this past week. Ok well in complete and total transparency it was more like the whole week where I was being taught and drug through the mud on contentment. Dont get me wrong! I love my life, my husband, all my boys, our little home on a busy street, and the fact that we work in public safety. However I was battling that little demon, the green eyed monster. I was constantly being drawn to where other people were on their financial journey, how other moms were homeschooling and the way they handled and collected their materials with such ease and grace. How we are working so hard to stick to a budget and our goals so that when we sell the house in a few months we will be setting ourselves up for more options and how it feels like so many others around me are able to go and do without feeling guilty. All on top of beginning the nesting period and wanting to spend every minute cleaning, painting, rearranging, and sprucing up our home. I was reminded of the verse in Philippians that says:
So that is what I have been focusing on. I have decided that my goal is to totally get ready for this baby on the $100 budget that we set. That the busy street and loud annoying motorcycles that go by every day at 3:35 will not be a source of frustration but I will pray protection over their bodies and driving ability. That I will rejoice with those that are where I am working towards being. That I will not compare my homeschooling ability to that of other moms who have many years experience on me but that I will learn from them and watch them and see what works best for my family and with the temperament of child the Lord has blessed me with. That I will not let me story and my legacy be one of comparison, frustration, and annoyance but rather one of joy, grace, patience, faith, and an overflowing love for the Lord.
After making this decision I got hit with the itch to get a dresser for the new campers room. I searched Craigslist, Yard Sale sites, Facebook yard sale pages, even asked my mom to keep her eye out. Then two days ago I simply prayed, "Lord, you are in control of this and if it takes me the rest of this pregnancy to find a dresser that will fit in the space and in our budget that is ok. Take it because it is stressing me out." Not 2 hours later we were dropping things off at Goodwill(I told you, cleaning, purging, nesting happening over here!) and what do we see as soon as we get to the furniture section. A solid wood dresser, not too deep, not too big, and not falling apart, and best of all for $15!! What? I was like snatch this up before someone else does because that thing is mine!!
I guess my point to this entire post is the Lord has you right where you are for a reason. We may not think it glamorous or where you want to be but His ways are not our ways. He desires good for you and not evil. He desires to grant you the desires of your heart and show off in a big way for you! Trust Him in His timing and trust His plan for you. It is worth it and your faith will grow by leaps and bounds as will the joy that you find in Him.
Praying blessings over you today and a spirit of contentment.
Isnt it ugly?? lol
Amazing what a little paint can do!!! I love it and it fits perfectly in the little space we have! Thank you Lord for providing as only you can do!
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